The last few weeks I have found very harsh …. I am finding more difficult the loss of Dougie , I am missing him very much indeed Im lost without him …. I cannot seem to face any issues etc … keep putting things off and more off .. Im trying so hard to snap out of it but seem to be failing … I try so hard each morning to pull myself together and start with positive moves and thoughts … the move yes its a lovely house its very quiet indeed I can go days without seeing or speaking to anyone … I do drive out for a coffee etc and go for walks but when ones life has always been sharing it feels so lonely ….
my health hasn’t been to good these past weeks also but I think its all part of it ….
Apart from this i did have a lovely evening at the Ballet with the lovely Debbie Goodman Went to see Swan Lake by the Georgian state Ballet company … actually I was very disappointed …. just must be me …
but hidden secret is the old Talk of the Town the star restaurant was fab and reasonable …
my dear sister Janet had a gathering of her dancing friends since the age of 4 .. it was lovely to tag along and join them .. learn about their lives … really bonded with Ali she is great fun lives in France so look forward in meeting her again x
Mum came to spend a weekend but bless her was uncomfatble not being in her space … her long term memory is amazing but her dailey memory is not so good … bless bu she is 94 ! how my sister copes I will never know with her looking after her husband and mum she is amazing …
My lovely friend Joan came to lunch and spent a few hours together and was lovely….
so in it all im so lucky and lots of love from sister and bro friends that I am so grateful i shouldn’t moan or be down or feel sorry for myself … snap out of it JOHNS
